Trapped Beneath

Have you ever felt trapped? Trapped within yourself? Your mind wants to do so much. You want to put your heart and soul in it but when its time, you can't find the energy. You feel like blaa!! But there is nothing to feel blaa about. You can accomplish so much, you want to accomplish so much. But somehow you can't make yourself go forward. Sometimes it takes life altering events to get you up and going. Your life is passing by and you haven't accomplished what you set out to do. In the year 2016, within one year my life changed. First my mom passed away from Alzheimer's. Leap year. She passed on Feb, 29th right on my aunts birthday and two day before mine. It was a strenuous time. I was getting winded easy around this time. I went for a stress test and failed. So they sent me in for a heart catheter in June. I ended up having two stents put in. A week later I had a stroke. Later that year in November, I had a heart attack. I had to retire from my job because I could